last week

last week was tough

everyday led me to frustration

frustration that stayed and showed no signs of leaving

the thoughts in my mind were heavy

my heart felt challenged

i spent a lot of time in thought

and

a lot of time in tears

i felt like so many threads were being pulled at the same darn time.

i was challenged by an ex-spouse

misunderstood by a sister

too wrapped up in my issues to realize I had distanced myself

from Mr C

and

i was not patient with my children

my challenges rolled on over to my little family

that made me feel horrible

So...

in order to make up to my 3 little chicks

we headed to the park

they forgave me instantly

i forgave myself too

i sat with my toes warm in the sand

listening to my kids

reading my book

clearing my head

morgan ran wild with her long wavy hair

landon climbed everything in sight
mikey put himself in the middle of his own adventure

it was good for my little spirit to let go and forget all
that was bothering me

that is always hard for me to do

it's hard to stay focused on the not so great when

i hear my little wonders laughing and screaming

the park was my medicine

being outside away from the norm...

and then today

just seeing landon

trying to grab the flag that

the boy scouts placed in our front yard

for civil rights day

was enough to keep

me in the same frame of mind

i spent a whole week being down

i dont like that i wasted that much time

dwelling

on things out of my control right now

time for a fresh new week

without frustrations

without tears

time to let go of things that i cannot control

just typing that makes me feel lighter

Today I am grateful for: Laughing. Plain and simple. Laughing until my sides hurt.